Sabrina, NOT a teenage witch

It's all about me, my life, my family, my interest, my feeling, everything about me.

Ilyas demam

Petang Jumaat, masa ambil Ilyas dari rumah babysitter, Kak Syikin, hidung dia meleleh. Kak Syikin kata, badan dia dah mula panas. Kiter memang standby ubat demam dalam bakul Ilyas. So, petang tu Kak Syikin dah kasi Ilyas.

Kebiasaannya, Ilyas lepas makan ubat demam, dia akan OK. Tapi malam tu, badan dia semakin panas. Tak pernah rasa badan dia sepanas tu. Letak Kool Fever pun, masih tak reda. Letak kain lembab pun sama juga. Takde perubahan. Nak ke klinik, dah agak lewat. Tak pasti kat mana ada klinik 24 jam di Cyberjaya. Kalau di Ampang, tu melambak-lambak.

Keesokan harinya, ingatkan balik ke Banting untuk Hari Keluarga. Tapi keadaan Ilyas masih tak berubah. Masih panas badannya. Dan buat pertama kali, dia mula merengek dan mengamuk. Satu malam dia tak tidur. Badan kurang sedap. Tambahan pula, di bahagian belakang kepalanya, macam ada satu benjolan. Rupa macam bisul, tapi tak pasti. Yang pasti, kalau terkena tangan kiter sekali pun, dia akan menangis sekuat-kuat hati. Sampai merah padam mukanya. Kalau dibaringkan pun, Ilyas akan mengiringkan kepalanya ke kiri atau ke kanan.

25 Disember, cuti umum. Klinik Dr Uma, tutup. Jadi kiter cadang nak cuba klinik baru di Neo Cyber. Tutup juga. Aiishh.. Nampaknya, terpaksa ke Dengkil jugalah. Klinik Harmoni, klinik yang sangat-sangat kiter tak berkenan. Sebelum sampai klinik tu, kiter masih boleh rasa kepala Ilyas sangat panas. Terasa macam kulit kiter kena cahaya matahari yang terik.

Doctor : Kenapa ni?
Me : Dia demam doc
Doctor : Selsema? Batuk?
Me : Selsema, ye. Batuk so far belum lagi

Dia keluarkan termometer dan cek suhu badan Ilyas
Doctor : Hmm..tak demam ni. You ada kasi ubat ke?
Me : Ha? Tak demam. Tapi malam tadi badan dia panas sangat-sangat. Last saya kasi ubat demam 4 pagi tadi.
Doctor : Hmm.. tak.. dia tak demam.. saya kasi ubat selsema jelaa dan antibiotik.
Me : Lagi satu doctor, saya perasan kat belakang kepala dia ni macam ada bisul laa
Doctor : Bisul laa tu kot (without even checking properly). Ke kena gigit semut api?
Me : Setau saya, takde pun semut api kat rumah saya.
Doctor : Hmm.. tak pela.. saya kasi ubat sapu sekali.

Kiter tak puas hati. Sampai rumah, kiter ambik suhu badan Ilyas sekali lagi (thanks for my boss, sebab hadiahkan termometer untuk Ilyas). Bacaan dia 37.6. Subhanallah... itu dia kata tak demam. Kiter ni mak dia. Kiter tau dan dapat rasa bila dia demam. Kak Syikin pun boleh tau Ilyas demam. Macam mana doctor tu kata Ilyas tak demam. Eeeeee... geramnya.

Kalau tanya Doc Naza pasal bisul tu, mesti Doc Naza akan cek dan confirmkan, apa bende yang kat kepala Ilyas tu. Ini doc satu ni, boleh kata "bisul KOT!" Hello, siapa yang doctor ni? Bukan ke awak puan doctor. Kenapa tak tengok kepala Ilyas tu betul-betul dan cek dan confirmkan bende yg terbonjol kat kepala budak kecik tu.

Nasib baiklah, ubat-ubat yg diberi, sangat bagus. Dalam masa sehari, hidung Ilyas dah kurang meleleh. Dan "bisul" tu pun dah keluar nanahnya. Pagi tadi, bila kiter cuba pegang dan sikit tekan "bisul" tu, Ilyas tak melalak lagi dah.

I hate this. Mr Sinus is coming back. This time, he treats me really bad. He's with me for almost 24/7. :(

Shall I call my darling Mr Spirulina, Mr Sinus? Well, may be I should because I can't stand you anymoooorreee!!! Please go away Mr Sinus. I hate you. You're not needed anymore.

Me and arwah Bapak

When my cousin, Suraya asked me to write something for our family magazine, I just realized I have not been updating my blog for quite sometimes. Not even introducing my new family member. It's just that too busy or too lazy.

Anyway, Suraya suggested to write on Bapak or Abang Ali. I was not that closed to Abang Ali. I just remembered I said something sarcastic to him about Adood. Well, I don't know, I can get piss off easily when people talk bad about Adood.

Bapak, yes. I had lots and lots of memories. Good ones, sad ones, bad ones. No matter how bad or good, my tears will definitely drop. I wish he's still here, to support me whenever I need one.

Sounds impossible huh? Yeah, I might laugh at myself too. Me, watching Bollywood movies? It's kinda joke of the day. But believe it or not, I just watched one good one last night. Well, I didn't watch from the begining, but I will catch up for the next show on Astro Box Office.

Surprisingly, they have changed. I don't think totally changed, but I think they started to improve. Well, they can't live without singing and dancing, but at least this "Three Idiots", no more "rolling" scene and all, you know. There's a love story, but for me it's just to add up spices into the movie.

I don't know the lead actor, but I think, it's Amir Khan. He's quite good playing "Rancho".

But watching this movie, just make me realize, is there anyone like Rancho in this world? Can we still find a friend, good friend, who's very sincere, honest, helpful, humble like him in this world? This movie also is not about friendship. May be parents should watch this. It taught you a very good lesson. DO NOT FORCE your children to do something they don't want to do, I mean in terms of career. As long as it is a good job, and not stealing or smuggling drugs or anything non-halal, just leave it to them to decide. Just be supportive to your kids.

Oh..oh... another thing, to be good in something, you must know how to apply it, must enjoy it and not just memorise your text book. Just look at Chatur. Hahaha.. He humiliates himself in front of everybody, because he memorises things blindly.

Well it was a good one. Congrats, Bollywood. I hope, Malaysian movie makers can do something better than this. Not just horror movies and "cinta monyet" movies, or "lawak bodoh" movies. Sendiri tell joke, sendiri gelak, and audience just terpinga-pinga sebab tak paham joke dia. Hahaha.. it's time to wake-up, guys!

Not again!!!!

I had to take emergency leave yesterday, fearing my car would suddenly stop in the middle of MEX highway. What happened was, a day before, I had trouble with the clutch and shifting gear, especially first and reverse. Aaahh.. not clutch pad again, pleaaaaaassseee...

My hubby had to go to Perak yesterday, that's why I had to bring the car for inspection. He asked me not to go to Bandar Sri Ehsan, instead, go to Sri Kembangan. So I did. I met this Sabahan mechanic, Sam. And yes, as suspected, it was the clutch pad again.

I just changed it last January. I was a bit pissed off with the previous mechanic. I don't know if they really cheated me or what. As far as I know, when that happened, I was just changing my front tires, and I knew I didn't have any problem in shifting gear, and suddenly they said, my clutch pad had damaged! And now, not even a year, I had to change again!!!

I have no choice, since I'm going to deliver soon. If I don't have a car, I will be in big trouble. So, I asked Sam to change the clutch pad. Well, it cost me almost RM800, but I got back my car within the same day! That considered quite good bargain. Otherwise I have to take another EL.

So there goes my RM800. :(

Looking at my Baby Ticker, I have about 20 days to go. It's not that long, huh? Nervous? Not so. I just can't wait to go for a long leave, actually. I easily get tired, especially for the past few days. May be I pushed myself too hard with the moving and cleaning up the house. But, I'm still thankful, because I was still energetic even I was in my 8th month of pregnancy.

My next check-up will be on next week. I have still not decided where to deliver. It's all depends when I feel the "urge". So, if it's during office hour, I will go to Hospital Ampang, otherwise, I will go to Hospital Putrajaya. Another thing I have not decided, tukang urut. Mak keep mentioning Cik Mirah, but Kak Yang suggested Wak Embong. Well, may be next week I will ask Mak to check out Wak Embong.

I'm not sure how long will I stay with Mak. But I think I will stay there at most for 7 days. I have to think about Ayumi also. It's not easy to travel with her. Even if I gave her sedative, she would fight. Kak Yang also did the same. Once finished berurut, she went back to Ampang. Come to think of it, both my sisters were very independent and were really tough.

Alhamdulillah. I have finally finished unpacking my stuff. I was worried I could not finish by the time I deliver. The only thing left is, sweeping my kitchen!

As I was clearing up my living room, Ayumi started to meow and a bit restless. I don't know why. May be she's missing Kuriyu. Now, the place is bigger. I think it would be nice if Kuriyu is till around. I bet, both of them would have good time chasing each other.

Oh, another thing, I need to clear my car also. There are still few things from my old house inside the car. Too lazy and too tired to carry all the way up to level 3. Hahaha.. Oh... Oh.. I have not unpacked and packed baby stuff yet. Hahaha.. hopefully I will not terberanak anytime soon. ;)

Yesterday was not really a good day for myself. I lost my cat, and I fell (for 2nd time during pregnancy) last night. My right toe turned blue and it was painful. I went to a clinic in Dengkil, just to check and get painkiller.

I don't like the doctor. It seems like Dr. Nazariha has set really high standard. My hubby told the doctor I have been lifting and moving stuff lately. Of course not the heavy ones. Well, we just moved in to Cyberjaya, and didn't have much help. My nephews Afiq, Fifi and Azim were here to help on that day, but when it comes to unpacking the stuff, I have to do it myself. I can't rely 100% to my hubby, since his feet are not in good condition as well. Of course I know, I know very well, at this stage, I can't, I'm not supposed to do all the hard jobs. But, if I don't do it, who's going to unpack and clean the house? I'm not stupid. Of course I want to just sit and relax right now. And who doesn't want a very fit husband who can do anything and everything by himself? My God, the doctor even asked me not to walk to much. Hello!!!! I'm now staying on the 3rd floor and it's a walk-up apartment! What do you expect? My husband to pull up using rope or something to get to the 3rd floor? How I wish for a perfect life!

How I wish I could see Dr Nazariha. Of course she would nag at me, but she would also listen to what you have to stay. She understands not everybody has a perfect life, has a perfect partner, has a perfect house, etc, etc. Do you know how good is she? Whenever I went to see her, I would feel better, even before taking the medicine, I would feel I was already cured. She's wonderful.

Anyway, my right foot was swollen right after I met the doctor. Huh.. "great" wasn't it? She prescribed Ponstan (which I doubt will have an effect on me) and a cream. I took the Ponstan and rub the cream on to my swollen foot, and went to bed. I told you! I can still feel the pain, and now up to my thigh! The swelling has reduced this morning but just a little bit, not much difference, anyway. I was thinking of going back to Ampang to clean up my previous house (of course I got someone to help me this time), but I think I have to cancel the plan. I don't think I can drive. Most probably I will just sit at home and doing nothing. Ooppss.. I'm actually on standby from 8 to 10 a.m. So I'm still doing something, though. Hehehehe..

Despite all this, I feel there's a hikmah. I won't write about the hikmah here. I will keep it to myself. At the same time, yesterday I was few hundred richer. As I was cleaning up my previous apartment yesterday, after work, I saw an envelope on the floor. I know it was an angpow from Mr Lai. Not this year, may be previous year. I almost threw it, but I told myself "Oh come on Sabrina, why don't you have a look inside the envelope. Who knows". I'm glad I listen to myself. I found few hundred ringgit inside it. I thought I have spent all the angpow. That's really made my day!

p/s: If my foot still like this, I will go to see Dr Nazariha tomorrow morning.

p/s/s: Oh another thing, so far no bleeding or anything. My baby is still moving. I hope everything is fine.

Tinggal satu

Around 4 or 5 a.m I heard Ayumi meowing. I just ignored her. I didn't know she was actually trying to tell me something. When I woke up at 6, I looked out for Kuriyu. First place, second toilet. He was there, but not at his usual spot. He was lying inside the toilet bowl.

I screamed and called my hubby. When my hubby came and checked on Kuriyu, we were a little bit too late. Kuriyu has gone. We were planning to send him to see vet. Last night he started to stop drinking by himself again. But I managed to give him milk, about 10ml.

I couldn't believe I will loose him this soon. Last night he was still "talking" to us. He was still keeping me accompany while I was preparing dinner.

He was such a good boy, very sweet. I will miss him dearly. RIP my "son". Sorry and thank you for everything. I will always remember every single thing about you. Muuuaaahhhhzzz..

This will be the last week in Ampang. I'm quite sad to leave this place actually. I have been staying there for almost 6 years, and I would say I grew up with Ampang.

To tell you the truth, I'm quite speechless. There were lots of memories. Leaving Ampang feels like I'm leaving all the memories, leaving all my "kids" behind. I feel like I'm going to leave Akane, Fly, Cuddy, Mikey, Shin-chan, Roger, Katik, Tompok, Mimi and Boy. I know. I know they were all gone. I should feel nothing, but most of them were buried there.

Akane was my first cat. Her master just let her loose. I brought her back because I could tell she was starving. True enough, she finished all the biscuit and slept all night long. She was not only starving, she was sooo exhausted being outside.

Fly was picked up by my hubby. Someone abandoned him and his mother. He was may be 2 months old at that time. I cried when I saw him for the first time. He didn't eat and just cried, calling for his mother for 3 days. Unfortunately, my hubby didn't manage to bring the mother along. But, when I put the food on my hand and put it in front of his nose, he started to eat. Subhanallah. He was hungry and just didn't what to do.

Cuddy, I brought her in exactly one year after Fly. My hubby said, he was very certain, Cuddy was actually Fly's mother. Poor girl. She was so skinny and dirty when we found her. We had to bathe her for more than 3 times. My friend once told me, Cuddy looks like me a lot, esp when both of us were grumpy.

I'm sure I'm going to miss Boy the most. He was adorable, and smart. He was just a stray. When I first met him, one of his eyes was blind. I noticed, every time he saw me, he would just follow me or rolling around. He was really manja. Sometimes he would follow me to the house. The best part is, he knew which is my house. He will go into the lift, once the door was open, he would know which way to go and he would lead the way and stopped exactly in front of my door. He turned totally blind few years later, and he would still recognize me and my house. I'm just glad, I took him in and let him stay in my house until he passed on. At least, he died in a comfortable place, and not as a stray.

Aaaahh.. too much. I feel like Mimi knew I'm about to leave the place. I have not seen her for more than 2 weeks already. Well, she was quite an old cat already. Recently I could tell she had not been very well. Even though she was afraid of people, and no one ever pet her, she was still a very special girl to me.

Oh God, give me strength.

My hubby said, he found an orange cat at his office. He feed the cat regularly. I saw this cat one time, and yeah.. he's very cute. Sometimes I do wonder, are these cats really can "smell" me? Hahaha.. anyway, even though I'm sad to leave Ampang, I'm looking forward for Cyberjaya. Cyberjaya, ready or not, here I come! ;)

Cooking again!

I have not been cooking for 5 months, I guess. My husband has already complained about it. Not so much to trouble me, but he prefers my cooking than outside food. For me personally, I'm sick of outside food already. Everywhere we go, always tom yam, tom yam and tom yam.

It seems like I'm getting back to normal. So I decided to cook again. I told my hubby, if we could go back home quite early, I will cook for lunch the next day. Alhamdulillah, most of the days, we reached home at most 8.30 p.m and as promised I cooked for him. I even cooked ketam masak lemak for him last weekend. He was soooo happy and I think he started to put on weight again.

As for today, I cook this for lunch (and I know he really enjoys it and he rates these dishes 8.5 out of 10, indeed).

Pan-fried salmon steak, seared sea scallops, oven-roasted asparagus wrapped with streaky beef, served with home made hollandaise sauce and tartare sauce

What a coincidence

Yesterday I was complaining to my husband. Both my palms, were very itchy. I kept scratching them until they turned red and hot. I remember, some people say, it's a sign for money to come in. Hahaha.. I don't really believe in that, but when I do think about it, every end or early of the year, I will have that symptom. Because usually during that time, we will get our annual bonus, pay increment and ANG POW!

My husband calls me just now. He asks me when did I complaint about my itchy palms. I said yesterday. And he said "Guess what? My final claim for the 2-month contract with MMU, is in". Hahhaha.. Coincidence? Anyway, Alhamdulillah, for the rezeki from Allah s.w.t.

Sejak akhir-akhir ini, saya terbaca di akhbar-akhbar tempatan, pihak polis telah memberkas berpuluh-puluh rakyat Iran. Kenapa? Menyeludup dadah.

Harap-harap, kerajaan Malaysia akan mempertimbangkan semula kemudahan visa percuma untuk 90 hari bila memasuki negara kita untuk rakyat Iran. Memang betul, kita seagama, cuma berlainan mazhab, tetapi, nampaknya kemudahan ini telah mula disalahgunakan oleh mereka.

Sepanjang saya bekerja di syarikat penerbangan ini, saya perhatikan, sejak dua atau tiga tahun kebelakangan ini, semakin ramai pelancong dari negara Iran. Boleh dikatakan, hampir kesemua yang datang ke Malaysia, tidak boleh bertutur dalam bahasa Inggeris. Kadangkala, soalan yang paling mudah seperti "Siapa nama awak?", mereka tidak dapat menjawab, kerana mereka tidak faham bahasa Inggeris. Saya sungguh hairan. Kalau mereka tidak fasih, atau sekurang-kurang faham asas bahasa Inggeris, mengapa mereka masih melancong ke negara kita? Saya juga cukup musykil, kalau mereka tidak boleh berbahasa Inggeris langsung, kenapa tidak atau paling tidak, bawa bersama seseorang yang boleh menterjemah bahasa Inggeris ke bahasa Parsi dan sebaliknya? Kalaulah saya, saya tidak akan biarkan ibu saya yang tidak boleh berkomunikasi dalam bahasa Inggeris, melancong ke luar negara tanpa saya atau abang/kakak saya.

Mungkin DADAH adalah salah-satu sebabnya. Wallahua'alam.

I spent the weekend in Tangkak, doing nothing. :D I was supposed to attend my family gathering on Saturday night. Unfortunately, my husband had to meet his vendor on Saturday. It was a very last minute thing. I thought he would finish around 3 p.m, so we would still be able to attend the event. But he only arrived home around 8 p.m.

I didn't really mad at him. Work first, but I was starving on that day. I only had banana cake for my breakfast and lunch. I didn't have cash on me, and of course no car. And, nothing at home to be cooked. When he called me around 7 p.m, I couldn't help crying. He rushed home and brought KFC back. I ate, but I threw up, almost all. I will vomit if I eat too much or if I'm too hungry. Don't ask me why, ask the baby. :D

He insisted that we're going to Tangkak. I almost said no, but I have bought and prepared all the birthday presents for Babang, Mukmin, Husna, Tasha and Abid. And I could still feel the pain on my butt for walking too much the day before. So I agreed. Anyway, I have packed everything.

We arrived at the hotel (D'Anjung Inn), at midnight. Basically, they had dinner, prayed, recited Yaasin, etc, etc. Babang brought us to the conference room. When I opened the door all of them singing "Allah selamatkan kamu... " and Amira holding a small piece of cake with a candle and asked me to blow the candle. Hahahaha.. that's so sweet. Anyway, one of the agenda was to celebrate those who were born in January. I was one of them, and also my late brother, Abang Ali. I'm just glad my family always remember my birthday is not 31st Dec, but 06th Jan. And I was soooo surprised, Suraya (my cousin) also remembers this too.

Since I was so exhausted, after dinner (dinner at midnight? whatever), went straight to the room. We didn't join them in Ledang the next morning, instead we stayed until check-out time and head back home.

Anyway, our (me and hubby) next mission is staying over the weekend, at a hotel. Good hotel perhaps. May be very near to house (I'm considering Pullman Putrajaya), spend a night there and the very next morning will have good breakfast, not typical nasi lemak. Really can't wait for that. ;)

p/s : sudah terbayang the buffet already

Huh.. That's not all. The complete journey is like this :
From Ampang to Cyberjaya to Bagan Lalang to BB Salak Tinggi to Bagan Lalang to Olak Lempit to Banting to Olak Lempit to Dengkil to Cyberjaya and back to Ampang.

I drove almost non-stop yesterday. Yeah, it was tiring and it was very, very hot. But I was quite happy.

First stop : Cyberjaya
Sent my husband to work. He supposed to take leave on that day, but he had lots of stuff. So he didn't apply for it. It was quite late. He clocked in at almost 9 a.m. I hope he will not receive any show cause letter. :D He had a meeting yesterday morning, and since we haven't had our breakfast, he asked me to tapau anything plus teh ais. Well, I was not into mamak, so I decided to try Mak Teh's nasi lemak at Neo Cyberjaya. So, I got nasi lemak and teh ais for both of us, and some lauk for my husband. I took the car, so I bought him lauk for lunch. While waiting for him (to finish his meeting), I saw Tun Dr Siti Hasmah. It was quite late so I made my move and heading to Bagan Lalang.

Second stop : Bagan Lalang
Yasmin, my niece lost her IC, and my brother refused to take her to JPN to apply for a replacement. Well, since I'm on leave, I decided to take her to JPN. So, I fetched her from Bagan Lalang.

Third stop : BB Salak Tinggi. It took me about 1/2 hour to reach JPN office, BB Salak Tinggi. I think that's the closest branch to Bagan Lalang folks. I arrived there at 11.30 a.m. We waited for one hour to get the temporary IC for my niece. Well, that was pretty quick, and since she's below 18, she didn't have to pay RM100 fees.

Forth stop : Bagan Lalang.. again
Of course I have to send her back. I thought of having lunch together, but I was rather late and she has to start work at 2 p.m. So I just sent her straight home.

Fifth stop : Olak Lempit
"Maakk.. I'm home, and I'm starving!" :D I haven't had my nasi lemak yet. And it was almost 2.30 p.m when I reached Mak's house. Mak had prepared lunch already. So I had some lauk as well. Wow, ada betik muda masak bening. Slluuurrrppp...

Sixth stop : Banting
Mak wanted to cash her Wang Pos. So I brought her to the post office.There are lots of people there. So we had to wait for at least 1/2 hour for our turn. We managed to exchanged the Wang Pos around 3.30 p.m. It was rather late actually as I need to be back to Cyberjaya before 5 p.m. I quickly drove to Metro Maternity for my monthly check-up. No one was there, so the session was quite a quick one. The baby is OK. But I found that this time the image on the screen was not good as before. It was hard for me to see the baby. But overall was OK. Doc said, nothing to worry about. I rushed to Tesco, which is at the back of the hospital. Mak bought groceries for her and she knew I was rushing, so she made it very quick.

Seventh stop : Olak Lempit. Mak told me to unload her stuff and put it at the porch. No need to bring them in. Once I unloaded everything I made my move to Cyberjaya. It was 5 p.m already. I called my husband whether to get his medication first or straight to Cyberjaya. He said, go and get the medication first. Oh well, whatever he said.

Eighth stop : Dengkil. The clinic is located in Dengkil. So I decided to take old road from Mak's place, so I don't have to make U-turn or what-so-ever at Cyberjaya ram. It was actually a supplement for my husband. Sooo many question they asked. I was wondering if they ever kept my husband's record. Oh well, at last I managed to get the stuff and head straight to Cyberjaya.

Last stop : Cyberjaya. I arrived there around 5.30 p.m. I knew my husband will not finished by that time, but I wanted to view a vacant apartment there. Insya-Allah, we will move there.

Arrived Ampang around 8.30 p.m. What a long day!

What can I say? Regret? YES! Disappointed? Also YES! But I can't complaint much because I have finished my bonus on the clothes. Well, I should allocate some for my make-up, but the thing is, most of my stuff finished at the same time.

I always prefer Bobbi Brown. Since the product is quite pricy, I just buy the essential one like foundation and loose powder. If I have extra fund, I will also get the concealer.

This is my list:
1- Loose powder (totally finished)
2- Blusher (totally finished)
3- Eyeshadow (I still have my Silky Girl eyeshadow, but it was bad. It was flaky and all the color got mixed up)
4- Moisturized lipstick (I still have Bobbi Brown lipstick but it's a dry type. I have wrongly bought that one and I can't use dry type. Will make my lips flaky)

So, I thought of getting all the stuff from the Bodyshop. So I went to Pavilion yesterday while waiting for my husband. Hmmm.. I was quite disappointed. The make-up range not as good as before, in terms of variety and quantity. But I'm too lazy to go to another shop. So, I just bought my make-up there.

Today, as I put on my make-up, another disappointment. The loose powder, I feel like putting on flour on my face instead of facial powder. The color is darker than my BB loose powder, but somehow it makes my face whiter. Now I understand what Bobbi meant by color tone in her book. She said something like, most of us, no matter what color your skin is, yellow is the base color, not pink or red. White is only, strictly ONLY for really, really, really fair skin, which is very, very rare in this world even in western countries. And I think that's why, when I put on my new loose powder, it doesn't look natural at all. Luckily I still have my BB foundation.

As for the chick color, I'm not quite satisfied as well. The color, the PRICE! For that price, mind as well, I go to BB and buy there! It's horrible. Well, partly my mistake. I didn't try to put it on my face yesterday. I was reluctant because the girl simply took the brush and the blusher, ready to put it on my face, without offering to clean my face first! Oh God! I did put on make-up earlier, if I tried without cleaning (at least my cheek), how can I tell that's the correct shades for me! Haiyooo! That's why I just grab it. Now sudah menyesal.

Well, I have to stick to these products at the moment. May be next month or when I receive ang pow from Mr. Lai, I will get my stuff from Bobbi Brown. Or, even if I'm on tight budget, I would go for Maybelline or Loreal. Their products are even better the Bodyshop. *sigh*

Still feeling down

Emotionally, I'm still like that. I'm still not happy. I'm not happy with certain things here. It's hard for me to "over write" bad things in my mind at the moment. Well, may be this is the challenge during my pregnancy.

This weekend, I'm going to Muar for our second family gathering. I hope, this trip will help me to recover. Even though I need a longer break, but I hope it will be a good start for me. Anyway, I'm taking a day of on Monday. That's good enough.

I'm going for my 3rd ante-natal check-up on Monday. I asked my husband to take a day off as well. Unfortunately he can't. Well, I prefer him to come with me. I really want him to see the baby, but now his priority is work. I'm quite sad, but I feel more sad if he just sit at home and do nothing.

Anyway, wish me luck. I hope I will recover very soon.


I thought I would be OK. I know I was really, really mad yesterday. But I tried not to show it too much, tried to keep to myself. I did tell my husband about it, but I don't think I have told him everything, I mean how did I feel, etc, etc. I did cry when I called him, but I have not let all out.

I noticed something wrong with me since yesterday evening. It seems like, my mind and my body were not communicating to each very well. I still didn't talk much about it. I know it did bother me a lot. I thought I would be fine.

This morning, when I woke up, as I was petting Ayumi, I was still OK. Until Ayumi, as usual, suddenly jump (I have no clue what makes her jump) and scratched my hand. It was really, really painful and I started yelling at her. I know she was so scared of me at that time. And things are getting worst. I realized that I could not find my husband's socks. Not even a piece. I remember he told me I sent only 4 pairs of socks to the laundry. But I found out that, there were none of them in the laundry bag. He had one pair yesterday and that's it.

I started to worry. But he said that's all right. He can still use yesterday's one. OK then. I thought of ironing his pants and my tudung before shower. I was still thinking about the socks at that time and my hand was really painful. I almost cried. Daammmnn!! I burnt my husband's the one and only working pants. I was panicked and started to cry. And I could not stop crying at all. I feel like I'm sooo useless. Can't even iron a pair of pants, I can' find my husband's socks. I really don't feel good.

I asked him to send me to see Dr. Naza. At least to dress the wound. It really hurts. I was still crying. I only stop when I reached the clinic. It was like a magic. When I saw her name on the door, I felt sooo much better. I was more calmer. Unfotunately, there were lots of patients today at the clinic. So I couldn't talk much with Dr. Naza. I don't know. Everytime I feel bad or sick, I will feel better after seeing her. Sometimes I don't think I need any medicine from her, just need to talk to her and I will feel better. Thanks Doc. I hope you will not quit your job. We do need you.


I don't know how many times have I watched the series. First of all I'm a big fan of Takuya Kimura and second of all I love the story. It's just another typical Takuya's character. Being a cold person but he wanted to love and to be loved.

I just finished watching the series. Well, while waiting for my hubby to finish work.

Well, I cried again. It seems like every time I watch this drama, I would cry. But this time, for different reason. Before, I cried because I know how Aki felt. Well, I was waiting for someone but unlike Aki, I didn't know who was that person. I was lonely. I have no one except my sister, my mom and my Lisa. I broke-up with my boyfriend for almost 3 years that time. I cried every time I watched Aki and how I wished I could find someone like Halu. Was he romantic? May be! But I think lots of people would associate romantic with flowers or proposed the girl on his knees or I don't know. But I do love the way Halu treated Aki, the way he looked at Aki, and asking Aki to watch him during the games so he would be better than usual, etc, etc. I just love that. That's really show how Aki's present means so much to him. Isn't that something? Don't you feel great when someone told you "I would do anything for you, just for you. I will feel stronger if you were there for me. I will do things better if I have you beside me"? For me that's even better than an expensive bouquet of flowers.

But today, I can't help crying again. This time I was touched by few things. It feels like I could see this story from different angle. This is not just a love story. It tells a lot about friendship, about team spirit, about ego, about hard work, about leadership. I'm touched with how closed Halu, Yamato, Tomo and Makoto were. How they supported each other.

Hmm.. what's next? Shall I watch Hero? Or Ranma 1/2? Aahh,, I wish I had Honey & Clover. I miss Hagu. Kawaaaiii.. ;)


I didn't sleep well last night. My cat Ayumi is in heat now. So she keep meowing, searching for boyfriend. *sigh*

After I woke my husband, I thought of taking a nap. It was around 6 a.m, right after the azan. I had this nightmare. I went to my uncle's house with Mak, somehow, I left her there and I went back. If I'm not mistaken, she went out somewhere with her friends after visiting my uncle. She promised to call me. But she never called. I tried to call her, she didn't pick-up, and out of sudden, her friend knocked my door and she was crying. She told me Mak had an accident, she was bleeding and she was dead. When I open the door, I saw a van parked in front of my house, and the guys were carrying Mak. I ran and scream, calling her name. But she has GONE! Motionless, lifeless. Then I woke up.

I hope Mak is OK. I'm going to call her later this afternoon.

Innocent child

My niece called me yesterday, asking if I would go to Langkawi with my family. I'm not sure if I can join them actually. I might have to standby on Sundays. She was a bit disappointed, because the trip will be on the day after her 10th birthday. She thought I could celebrate her birthday there and of course with present. But the most interesting conversation went like this:

Me : How am I supposed to go to Langkawi?

Lisa : You can take flight and join me of course.

Me : But the doctor said I can't take flight anymore. What if I gave birth on the flight?

Lisa : Well, you can go to ER (klinik kecemasan, according to her) and deliver there.

Me : But if we're still flying how am I going to ER?

Lisa : The cabin crews will help you.

Me : But I don't think the cabin crew can lift me. I'm too heavy.

Lisa : I didn't say they have to carry you. You just walk to the ER, then they will provide wheel chair or stretcher for you.

Hahahaha.. no matter what I said, she tried her best to persuade me to go to Langkawi and not to worry at all.

I went for my second ante-natal check-up on 11th Jan, 10. My sugar level was 4.8. Pheeeww.. So I'm under control, but still I have to watch out since Mak is diabetic. I wish I could be like her, in terms of dieting.

During scanning, I could see the baby kicking. Subhanallah. The feeling was indescribable. Unfortunately my hubby wasn't there due to work commitment. Mak was accompanying me but she waited outside. I asked for the baby's picture. I showed it to my hubby, and he was stunned (i guess). I have no idea what was on his mind at that time.

My baby - 12 weeks.

My baby - 17 weeks

Feel like changing the template again.


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